The alarm rang so i got up. I was already late. As i was getting ready, i realised that everything that i tried on, looked awful on me. Ughhh, i hate going out. If i could do everything from home, i would be happy. Really.
Then my mother came in. She looked at me. Her look reminded me the look of all that people that were judging me... I suddenly felt awful. Then she told me: "When did you become so fat?"
Seriously?? She was partly responsible for my situation and she asked this question? I did not respond. Then she kept talking: "You can't be like that. You are a young girl with an ugly body. Stop eating". Like i didn't know what i should do. Yeah stop eating, Jessy. So easily said. But could please somebody understand me? I just need someone that is going to tell me that everything is going to be OK and to encourage me not just by saying something that i already know. How much do i ask for???
Then my mother came in. She looked at me. Her look reminded me the look of all that people that were judging me... I suddenly felt awful. Then she told me: "When did you become so fat?"
Seriously?? She was partly responsible for my situation and she asked this question? I did not respond. Then she kept talking: "You can't be like that. You are a young girl with an ugly body. Stop eating". Like i didn't know what i should do. Yeah stop eating, Jessy. So easily said. But could please somebody understand me? I just need someone that is going to tell me that everything is going to be OK and to encourage me not just by saying something that i already know. How much do i ask for???
